I must've messed up again. She made me jealous this afternoon. So I didnt reply her. I msged her again after tuition but she didnt reply.. I thought maybe she's busy you know? But she has never been too busy for me. I know she has credit. She just reloaded. I msged her again just now to wish her goodnight. She hasnt replied. I'll be leaving on Friday. For 5 effin days. 5 effin days without her. When she ran outta credit, I had to go 2 days without her. Thats the most I've ever gone. And it was pure hell. I had to keep myself busy, reading newspaper, Photoshopping, watching TV, playing with my dog. Or else I'd start thinking of her. And I'll get so down and moody. I dont mean to push her away, but I really miss her when she's not around. I get moody and cranky. Thats not good, I know she wont want me feeling that way.. I wonder what's she doing now.. I refuse to go online on MSN ever again. Everytime I do, it just makes me sad. She said absence makes the heart grow fonder. But for me.. absence makes my heart and eyes wander. So far I've been good, I dont want to play around with her. She's freakin awesome. I dont know why I deserve such a girl. She still hasnt replied. Its been 15 minutes. Haha, she always replies within 5 - 10 minutes. And she always apologizes if she takes a longer than usual time to reply. We talk about nothing but having her around is comfort for me. I wont say I'd love her forever. But for now, yeah I love her. And it just sucks not having her here. She still hasnt replied.

On a happier note, everyone complimented my hair today in Maziah. I dont regret dying my tips purple. I even got it done by this freakishly cute Hairport dude. I keep peeking in Hairport to get a glimpse of him. In his sexy coat, his uber 'ying' hair. *swoons* My eyes wander to cute guys / girls. But I'm not gonna let my heart wander. It's only for her.