My hormones are seriously unstable. Just now I was laughing and grinning then felt relieved and now I'm just close to tears. Tsk tsk. I know most people dont come to my blog now, so I'll just rant more openly about how I feel. XP I finally bought Miyavi-sama's photobook which was about RM227. @__@ But it's worth it. His pictures just bring me into my La La Land. XD Then in the bus on the way home from KL, I was thinking how relieved I am that school's over. I dont need to see her, I dont need to feel hurt or left out. I hate being like this. School just sucks. Enjoy your fuckin school life, that's what people tell me. I'm already tired of all this, so I guess I'm embracing my loner side once again. That was what I was basically thinking of on the wya home from KL. Then I got online, and read her blog. I dont know why I keep going there. I guess its the only way I can feel like she's talking to me. I guess it's my fault for not mixing around, but I was in a loner mood, I got irritated by EVERYONE and ANYONE easily. I didnt wanna snap at her. >__< I think half of my class irritated me on the last day of school. @__@ I didnt talk to her at all on the last day of school. I didnt even say bye. Our friendship's like crumbling. And I dont know what to do. I liked her as my best friend, she always made me laugh and I just felt way at home with her. Like no matter what I did, she'd be okay with it. She wont freak and run away. ^^" I wanna say I'm sorry to her, make things okay between us again. I dont wanna lose this friendship. But I know I suck at all this. I hope she reads this and forgives me ne? I'm too tired to write anymore. But I didnt think I'd end my Form 3 school life like this. I had an awesome year coz of her and I messed it up in the end. Haihh, way to go. I'm tired and feeling emo. I need some sleep. I know the flow of this blog isnt very good. But I dont care. Nobody really reads this so whatever.