I started thinking a lot today. Well, I think a lot everyday actually.. What else is there for me to do? Lie down and let my brain rot all day? >_O I realized I'm blaming her for the way we are now.. I blame her for not talking to me.. I blame her for us drifting apart.. But then it hits me.. Its my fault too ne? I never msg her.. I never go on msn anymore.. I didnt even show up at the break dance thingy, I would've seen her then.. She msged me to go, but I didnt have credit to reply.. And honestly, I was scared to see her again.. I mean, after feeling so far apart.. I cant suddenly run up to her and laugh like last time.. I wish I could.. I'm not going to Leong's party either.. I mentioned it before.. I guess, next time I'll be seeing her is when.. We collect our PMR results.. Will we be all weird around each other? I remember all the times back then.. I was so close to her.. I could do anything in front of her and not feel weird.. Now I'm even thinking of pretending everything's okay in front of her.. Haih.. I really failed huh.. I used to get so happy everytime I made her laugh.. Seeing her happy made me happy.. Too many thoughts are racing through my head.. This post must seem very disordered. >_< I need to talk to her.. I'll msg her.. Yes, I'll msg her tomorrow..