I've got a whole lot of things going through my mind.. And its all about her.. Only 2 more days.. Somehow I find it funny that we got together on the guy that I absolutely love, Miyavi-sama's, bday lol.. I had my insecurities about her.. Sometimes I just feel so unimportant to her, so pushed aside.. When she tells me there's really no one else above me.. But I just feel so left aside.. Its not the first time I felt it, and there's only so much hurt I can take ne? And I remembered Ken Ann told me, it takes two to make a relationship work and if I dont tell her, she's never know.. So I told her everything last night.. We've sorted things out.. We always do, we have out little arguments, our little problems.. I guess whats so special about us is that, we're both willing to listen and comfort.. And help make that problem go away.. But I felt bad, for making her disappointed in herself.. She really did want me to be happy.. She really wanted to be the husband who makes her wife happy.. And what I was telling her was she makes me unhappy.. She didnt know she hurt me so much.. But she should also know how she's the only one that can make me smile again when I sink into depression.. She's been such a great husband to me.. Everytime I needed someone, she was always there.. Even when we're not talking, I know I'm not alone.. Nobody really cared before when there was a problem in the relationship, nobody tried to make it work except her.. Thats why I am thankful for her, I'm not gonna play around this time.. Not anymore, not when I can hurt such a precious person to me..