Yayyyy! I'm back from Bangkok! So I did sorta enjoy the trip since I managed to get an old issue of Fool's Mate. BUT BUT! It had a huge cover on Miyavi-sama. ^-^ I also managed to get Neo Genesis 2006 Year Book! Featuring The GazettE, Alice Nine, Antique Cafe, Plastic Tree and Nightmare. Happiness!! X33 But I'm also glad to be back, 5 days was just too long away from her. >__< But this post isnt about her. During all those travelling hours I had a lot of time to think you know? Mainly about her. And also about.. aiyah what to call her.. Hmm.. We'll just call her D. ^^" I had a lot of time to think about the two of us. We were so extremely close during the school days. I looked forward to coming to school everyday just to laugh with her. Even at the beginning of the year, when I was with someone else. I felt even more comfortable with D than my special person. Everyone thought she had replaced my other best buddy. Everyone called us the best of friends. But did I really see her as a friend? I still dont know now. My feelings for her are all confused. We're not so close now since the holidays started. And I regret that. I like having her around, no one could make me laugh the way she did. Maybe that's why I'm always smiling when she's around. She's found someone new, I dont know how things are with her and that guy. But I hope she's happy. I always thought she looked so troubled. Even when she was smiling and laughing with me. I never asked why. She never mentioned anything either. But maybe I was only imagining it. I'd like her to be happy. I'd dress up as a clown and do juggling tricks if that'll make her smile. I dont wanna throw away this friendship me and her have. I dont know how to talk to her now though. I refuse to go online and I dont have much credit. I dont see her around either. This sucks. All in all, I hope she's okay. I dont believe in God, or praying or anything like that. But if I did, I'd pray for my family, her, Miyavi (lol) and D. Yup.